It's been a long time since my last post. I was too bussy all this time and quiet confused with all my activites. Back with my stories of course. I thought my blog is my diaries. I'm too lazy to write in on a book hahaha :DD Just begin with my feeling about being in my new school.
I don't feel any awkward situation anymore. I think that I get used to. I've got friends, they're really good and funny, although still I can't be myself. I still could not open myself to them. Maybe it's not the time. I can laugh now, I can adapt, like I said before. There are so much stories that I want to write but I don't know where to start. Now, I used to go to school at dawn and back to home at evening. Maybe some of people will ask what did I do at school? How could it take so long for learning at school? Let me tell you that the lesson is over at 3.10. After that, for this month until next or maybe the next and the next month, I will be busied by my extracurricular activities. I took an English Club and FOKUS for extracurricular. In my school, every extracurricular has a regeneration. It's like MOS at school but it's for the extracurricular. The fact is, the regeneration is so much better than MOS. When MOS, I just could sleep for two or three hours. It was really tiring. But the tasks will never be left. In regeneration, we also got many tasks and of course writing.
I love doing that, I can know a lot of my seniors. That's good, isn't it? We work and discuss together. This afternoon, after went to the PETA Museum, I went back to school. The first plan was I wanted to talk about our tasks with my group. But in the end, we talked about how was the previous MOS and laughed together. It was really fun. There was someone who really enthusiast when told the stories. He was really good at speaking. I just laughed laughed and laughed. Hahahahaha, really funny when I remembered it once more. But unfortunately, I had to go before it's over. I had to go to my course and then back to home. I was sure that I'd really have fun for one year ahead in my English Club. In my school it's called eASY (english Association for SMANSA Youth).
I dind't cry anymore now. I can feel that the pain is walking slowly. Hope it'll really go away and never come again to my life. But I'm very tired. Because of that, sometimes I'm angry with a small thing. I was just too tired, and I just want to quiet. I want to relax my mind, my mouth, and my body. Even it's not sleeping, but I just want to have my own time with myself. I really need it sometimes since I had a lot of doings at school. Maybe it's weird, but I like to talk with myself, just remembered everything while lying in bed or maybe typing in the computer.
Now, I really want to concentrate on my mission. I want to enroll University of Indonesia. Even though all of my families say that it'll hard, but I won't stop trying until I really failed. There must be a way if you really want it and you make efforts to get it. Everything begins with pain and come the happiness :)
FM
