Love

Loving someone is a moment where you feel happy when you're seeing the person who you love feel happy, a moment where you share your pain with him, a moment where you accept him as an imperfect person, and a moment where you can make he feels comfortable when he's with you :)

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you---Roy Croft.

If you really fall in love with someone, you'll stare him with full of compassion, touch him with a thousand of love, and keep in your mind that he's your life and your breath :)

Your words are my food, your breath are my water. You are everything to me---Sarah Bernhardt.

You'll think that he is the best gift that you've ever got. You'll protect him and give your whole life for him :)

The best gift I've ever had is you---Anonymous.

Words of love are beautiful. You're giving a thousand of phrases just for your love. You drift because of love, you're blind because of love :)

"I love you" is more valuable than money---Frank Sinatra.

Then you'll start to think that the person you love has brought you a million of knowledge that you haven't known before. He has made your days brighter and more colorful than before, and you know what does love mean to you :)

If I know what love is, it is because of you---Herman Hesse.

Suddenly, reality is pulling you out from your dream. You fall so far from above and you feel so much pain. That love has gone, he keeps going even though you've called him with all of your power. He doesn't leave you a thing, just a scar that you cannot remove :(

Pleasure because of love lasts a moment, but pain because of love lasts a lifetime---Bette Davis.

You start to cry, regretting all the things and want to fix everything. But sometimes, that love doesn't give you another chances. He thought that you've thrown him away :(

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop---Anonymous.

You want your love back. You keep chasing it, but he doesn't give the same as your wish. He leaves you behind. No more lightning in his eyes when he sees you although you still keep it when you're staring him. The pain is much worse :(

The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you---Anonymous.

And then you give up, no more thing that you can do to bring him back. You just let it flow and try to erase all the memories of you and him. You're trying hard to keep standing up and open another new page in your life. Trying to let him go from your life and back to think positively :)

It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all---Alfred Lord Tennyson.

You've learned from your past and you've done it. You'll find the way how to make a love give you no trouble someday. Love is a gift, you'll get in one day and take care your love with a good start :)

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lose---G.K. Chesterton.


FM

Let me be the one

Somebody told me you were leaving, I didn't know
Somebody told me you're unhappy, but it doesn't show
Somebody told me that you don't want me no more
So you're walking out the door
Nobody told me you've been crying every night
Nobody told me you'd been dying but didn't want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I'm setting you free

Let me be the one to break it up
So you won't have to make excuses
We don't need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I'm telling you I love you one last time and goodbye

Somebody told me you still loved me, I don't know why
Nobody told me that you only needed time to fly
Somebody told me that you want to come back
When our love is real again

Just turn around and walk away
You don't have to live like this
But if you love me still then stay
Don't keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test
Or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest
That you will always have my heart

Let me be the one...oh I love you..


This just touch my heart...
Thanks to Shadrina for making me know this song :)
Ready to hear it from you, Blue.


FM

Back :)

It's been a long time since my last post. I was too bussy all this time and quiet confused with all my activites. Back with my stories of course. I thought my blog is my diaries. I'm too lazy to write in on a book hahaha :DD Just begin with my feeling about being in my new school.

I don't feel any awkward situation anymore. I think that I get used to. I've got friends, they're really good and funny, although still I can't be myself. I still could not open myself to them. Maybe it's not the time. I can laugh now, I can adapt, like I said before. There are so much stories that I want to write but I don't know where to start. Now, I used to go to school at dawn and back to home at evening. Maybe some of people will ask what did I do at school? How could it take so long for learning at school? Let me tell you that the lesson is over at 3.10. After that, for this month until next or maybe the next and the next month, I will be busied by my extracurricular activities. I took an English Club and FOKUS for extracurricular. In my school, every extracurricular has a regeneration. It's like MOS at school but it's for the extracurricular. The fact is, the regeneration is so much better than MOS. When MOS, I just could sleep for two or three hours. It was really tiring. But the tasks will never be left. In regeneration, we also got many tasks and of course writing.

I love doing that, I can know a lot of my seniors. That's good, isn't it? We work and discuss together. This afternoon, after went to the PETA Museum, I went back to school. The first plan was I wanted to talk about our tasks with my group. But in the end, we talked about how was the previous MOS and laughed together. It was really fun. There was someone who really enthusiast when told the stories. He was really good at speaking. I just laughed laughed and laughed. Hahahahaha, really funny when I remembered it once more. But unfortunately, I had to go before it's over. I had to go to my course and then back to home. I was sure that I'd really have fun for one year ahead in my English Club. In my school it's called eASY (english Association for SMANSA Youth).

I dind't cry anymore now. I can feel that the pain is walking slowly. Hope it'll really go away and never come again to my life. But I'm very tired. Because of that, sometimes I'm angry with a small thing. I was just too tired, and I just want to quiet. I want to relax my mind, my mouth, and my body. Even it's not sleeping, but I just want to have my own time with myself. I really need it sometimes since I had a lot of doings at school. Maybe it's weird, but I like to talk with myself, just remembered everything while lying in bed or maybe typing in the computer.

Now, I really want to concentrate on my mission. I want to enroll University of Indonesia. Even though all of my families say that it'll hard, but I won't stop trying until I really failed. There must be a way if you really want it and you make efforts to get it. Everything begins with pain and come the happiness :)

FM