I want to be a Journalist, Sir!

Ketika anak remaja seusiaku di tanya "Apa cita-citamu?" Kebanyakan dari mereka akan menjawab, "Aku ingin menjadi Dokter." atau Guru, Ahli Fisika, Ahli Ekonomi, Ilmuwan, Peneliti, dan sebagainya. Cita-citaku tidak setinggi itu, aku hanya ignin menjadi seorang Jurnalis.

Pertama kali mengenal dunia jurnalistik dari kakakku yang sebenarnya ingin mengambil jurusan tersebut ketika kuliah tetapi pada akhirnya mengambil jurusan Hubungan Masyarakat--Humas. Aku mulai tertarik ketika dia sering bercerita tentang seorang wartawan. Bagaimana mereka meliput berita, bagaimana suka-dukanya menjadi wartawan, dan bagaimana tantangan bergelut dengan dunia tersebut. Suatu hal yang memang aku ingini.

Ditambah lagi, ketika aku melihat wartawan-wartawan di televisi. Entah mengapa, aku berpikir bahwa mereka orang yang hebat. Mereka yang mencari informasi lalu menyalurkannya pada masyarakat. Itu bukan hal yang mudah, bukan? Apalagi, kalau mereka harus pergi ke daerah konflik, bukan hanya di dalam negeri tapi di luar negeri. Kecemasan tersendiri pasti ada di dalam benak mereka. Yang membuat aku lebih terkagum adalah, mereka sangat terlihat menikmati dan menyenangi pekerjaan mereka itu. Walaupun harus bekerja tanpa mengenal waktu, tempat, dan cuaca, mereka tetap mengerjakannya demi kepentingan masyarakat. Menurutku itu sudah cukup membuktikan bahwa mereka berjasa.

Imipianku tidak harus menjadi seorang jurnalis televisi. Media cetak juga sudah sangat cukup untukku. Aku suka menulis dan aku ingin menyalurkannya. Aku ingin menjadi orang yang memberikan informasi dan bukannya mendapat informasi dari orang lain.

Aku juga ingin mempunyai kartu segala akses yang dipunyai jurnalis, seperti apa yang kakakku bilang. Dengan kartu itu, aku bisa meliput berita apapun tanpa harus membayar. Bukankah itu menyenangkan? Teman-teman kakakku sudah banyak menjadi jurnalis yang berhasil. Kebanyakan dari mereka bekerja di media cetak. Ada seorang teman dari kakakku yang bekerja sebagai Wartawan Kepresidenan. Ia ikut kemana pun Presiden pergi untuk melaksanakan tugasnya.

Aku yakin, banyak sekali pengalaman yang di dapat jika menjadi seorang Jurnalis. Bertemu dengan orang-orang penting, bahkan berbincang dengan mereka. Pada awalnya, pasti akan terasa berat, tapi aku yakin, ketika mulai pada pertengahan, pasti akan terasa menyenangkan dan nyaman menjadi seorang jurnalis.

I want to be a Journalist, Sir! :)

FM

Spending time with others :)

Jumat, 7 Januari 2011 dan Sabtu, 8 Januari 2011

Mungkin orang-orang saat itu sudah beristirahat dan menyiapkan diri untuk sekolah hari Senin. Tapi aku, seperti baru memulai liburan hahaha :D

Hari Jumat tanggal 7 Januari itu, SMANSA Bogor--sekolahku, mengadakan acara Perayaan Natal dan Tahun Baru. Aku sangat senang, karena jujur saja aku terlibat di dalamnya. Aku banyak membantu dan kita bekerja sama sangat kompak sehingga acara bisa berjalan dengan lancar :) Puji Tuhan banget. Meskipun koor acaranya--ka Alvi, ga bisa dateng, kita tetep bisa menjalankan acara dengan lancar. Sebenarnya, tamu yang datang sangat jauh dari harapan kita. Maka dari itu, kita bisa dapet konsumsi banyak banget hahahaha :D si dani ajaa ngambil enam ada kali dia, empat di bawa pulang, plus dua di makan di sana hahahaha :D tapi dia emang kasian juga, secara harus latihan musik dari pagi hahaha, semangat, Dan! Melayani Tuhan sepenuh hati :) hahahaha :D

Aku ga ambil foto banyak, hanya beberapa :0


Ini Sandria, dia temanku yang baiiik :DD Meskipun kita ga sekelas, tapi kita bisa membaur dengan baik. Sekedar informasi, parfum kita sama hahahaha *apadeh*







yang ini Rara, kita juga ga sekelas tapi dia termasuk temenku yang paling baiik :D Rara orangnya ramah, ga pernah marah dan cara ngomongnya lucu banget hehe :D dia satu tempat les denganku, tapi kita beda hari.







pojok sebelah kiri, itu ka Galih. Dia ketua PERSIK--Persekutuan Siswa/i Kristen SMANSA tahun ini. Orangnya ramah dan baik banget, aku pernah satu les sama dia di LIA. Tapi, semenjak masuk SMANSA, dia jadi quit les dan kita baru ketemu lagi pas aku udah masuk SMANSA dan pertemuan perdana PERSIK. Awalnya aku sama sekali ga nyadar kalo itu ka Galih, tapi setelah di inget-inget, baru aku ngeh, parah banget -.- hahahaha :D




Lanjut ke tanggal 8 Januari. Aku pergi ke Taman Safari yang di Bogor. Aku pergi sama papa, ka nena, dan keluarga uda (om) ku. Sebenarnya itu gratis, acara family gathering-nya kantor papa, jadi kita ga keluar uang sedikit pun--kecuali ongkos, malah dapet uang hahahaha ;DD

Berangkat dari Ayub jam 6 pagi bener-bener nyiksa -.- secara aku baru tidur jam 12 gara-gara ga bisa tidur plus makan indomie dulu tengah malem gitu, hahahaha :D dan di bis, meskipun ngantuk banget, aku juga ga bisa tidur. Okelah, lupakan aja yang ga enak hahaha. Sampe di sana, hawa nya dingin banget. Di dalam bis, itu dingin banget, aku kira pas keluar, udah lumayan anget kayak biasanya, ternyata justru tambah menggigil, ngok banget -.- hahahaha :D



tapi tetep ga menghalangi untuk foto-foto hahaha :D ini fotoku di samping bis yang aku naikin. Waktu itu, temen-temen kantor papa lagi beli tiket masuk, jadinya kita boleh keluar dulu atau kalau mau buang air kecil.







yang ini sama ka nena.












kalau ini dia sendiri, aku yang ambil hehehehe :D







oke, mari aku kenalkan dengan dua sepupu-ku yang ganteng-ganteng ini hahahaha :D tapi beneran cakep-cakep :)



yang ini, namanya abang Timothy Stefan Saba Hutahaean. Umurnya 3 tahun Maret tahun ini. Dia anaknya aktif banget -.- cuman bisa diem kalau lagi tidur hahahaha :D dan kalau mau makan, susahnyaaaa minta ampuuun. Mamanya emang paling top kalau ngasih makan hahahaha :D Sekarang, dia udah bandel, kalau dulu sih namanya anak kecil masih polos-polos gimana gituuu hahaha :D yaa namanya juga masih anak kecil hahaha. cakeep kaan? ini nih satu anak kesayangannya ka nena hahahaha :D lucu banget kalau di ajak becanda, kayak udah ngerti ajaa hahahaha :D



yang ini, namanya ade Tristan Riordan Saba Hutahaean. Aslinya kayak anak bule hahahaha :D bedanya ga sampe dua tahun sama abangnya. Tadinya, ade ga mau dipegang sama aku, selalu nangis, udah gitu nangisnya kayak orang abis di gebukin semaleman hahaha ;D tapi sekarang udah mauu, cuman sekarang ade ga bisa diem. Kalau duduk, udah sampe jungkir baling ke sana ke mari. Kalo abangnya lari-larian, adenya cuman bisa duduk, tengkurep, dan segala macemnya karena belum bisa lari. Ga yakin deh kalo udah bisa nanti -.- hahahaha :D satu lagi, ade titan ini, kalo pegang benda, apapun bendanya, pasti di masukin ke dalem mulut -.- di gigitin sampe bosen. Heran aku juga hahahaha :D





ini foto kita bertiga, udah mau pulang sebenernya hehehe, yang ambil uda ucok. Kebiasaan, kalo ambil foto pasti sampe sepatunya keliatan -.- hahahaha :D









Kadang, sesuatu yang menyenangkan itu akan tiba di saat kita berpikir bahwa udah ga ada cukup waktu lagi untuk bersenang-senang. Tapi ternyata, pas udah mepet mau masuk sekolah lagi, aku malah diberi kesempatan lagi buat main sama Stefan dan Tristan. It was so wonderful to spend time with my families and friends. Yaaah, meskipun hari Minggu-nya aku kerepotan sendiri bebenah dan beresin tugas buat hari Senin hahahahaha :D

It's time to come back to the daily life where a dozen of assignments are waiting for me!! :))

FM

It's not my real story *-*

every inch of time, and every air that I breath,
I through it with you
you filled that blank side of my heart with your harmony
you're like the red color of my blood
you completed my life just like torn completed the rose
you touched my heart with a dozen of happiness
you've promised me not to let me go

then,

you woke me up from that beautiful dream
which I hope that will never end
you've gone like the wind
I know, dear
you're just doing a very long sleep
your eyes are closing
and your lips are becoming white
I know, dear
you just stop breathing!
but that the odd thing is coming up
no more happiness, and no more loves

why, dear?
why just you who can fly me to the moon?
I'm drowning into my tears
I felt what they called "heartache"
my only friend is now loneliness

I just want you to know, my dear
I'm missing you

FM

Hanya Dekat Kasih-Mu Bapa :)

Hanya dekat kasih-Mu Bapa, jiwaku pun tentram
Engkau menerimaku dengan sepenuhnya
Walau dunia melihat rupa, namun Kau memandangku
Sampai kedalaman hatiku

Tuhan inilah yang ku tahu
Kau mengenal hatiku
Jauh melebihi semua yang terdekat sekalipun
Tuhan inilah yang ku mau
Kau menjaga hatiku
Supaya kehidupan memancar senantiasa

this song makes me realize that Jesus is the best ever. He sees you more than other people do. He gives you what you want and He knows you much better than everyone. Jesus is the only Father for me. He's more than anything in this world and I love him with all of my heart. I'll never leave you, my Savior. Thank you for all of your gifts all this time :) You never forget me even though sometimes I forgot you. I'm sorry for breaking your heart, but I'll not leave you, I know you've given me a place besides you in heaven. I'll not leave although there are a lot of troubles, I believe in you. You've saved me from all my sins.Thank you, Jesus. Love you My Jesus :)

FM

Love

Loving someone is a moment where you feel happy when you're seeing the person who you love feel happy, a moment where you share your pain with him, a moment where you accept him as an imperfect person, and a moment where you can make he feels comfortable when he's with you :)

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you---Roy Croft.

If you really fall in love with someone, you'll stare him with full of compassion, touch him with a thousand of love, and keep in your mind that he's your life and your breath :)

Your words are my food, your breath are my water. You are everything to me---Sarah Bernhardt.

You'll think that he is the best gift that you've ever got. You'll protect him and give your whole life for him :)

The best gift I've ever had is you---Anonymous.

Words of love are beautiful. You're giving a thousand of phrases just for your love. You drift because of love, you're blind because of love :)

"I love you" is more valuable than money---Frank Sinatra.

Then you'll start to think that the person you love has brought you a million of knowledge that you haven't known before. He has made your days brighter and more colorful than before, and you know what does love mean to you :)

If I know what love is, it is because of you---Herman Hesse.

Suddenly, reality is pulling you out from your dream. You fall so far from above and you feel so much pain. That love has gone, he keeps going even though you've called him with all of your power. He doesn't leave you a thing, just a scar that you cannot remove :(

Pleasure because of love lasts a moment, but pain because of love lasts a lifetime---Bette Davis.

You start to cry, regretting all the things and want to fix everything. But sometimes, that love doesn't give you another chances. He thought that you've thrown him away :(

Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop---Anonymous.

You want your love back. You keep chasing it, but he doesn't give the same as your wish. He leaves you behind. No more lightning in his eyes when he sees you although you still keep it when you're staring him. The pain is much worse :(

The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you---Anonymous.

And then you give up, no more thing that you can do to bring him back. You just let it flow and try to erase all the memories of you and him. You're trying hard to keep standing up and open another new page in your life. Trying to let him go from your life and back to think positively :)

It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all---Alfred Lord Tennyson.

You've learned from your past and you've done it. You'll find the way how to make a love give you no trouble someday. Love is a gift, you'll get in one day and take care your love with a good start :)

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lose---G.K. Chesterton.


FM

Let me be the one

Somebody told me you were leaving, I didn't know
Somebody told me you're unhappy, but it doesn't show
Somebody told me that you don't want me no more
So you're walking out the door
Nobody told me you've been crying every night
Nobody told me you'd been dying but didn't want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I'm setting you free

Let me be the one to break it up
So you won't have to make excuses
We don't need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I'm telling you I love you one last time and goodbye

Somebody told me you still loved me, I don't know why
Nobody told me that you only needed time to fly
Somebody told me that you want to come back
When our love is real again

Just turn around and walk away
You don't have to live like this
But if you love me still then stay
Don't keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test
Or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest
That you will always have my heart

Let me be the one...oh I love you..


This just touch my heart...
Thanks to Shadrina for making me know this song :)
Ready to hear it from you, Blue.


FM

Back :)

It's been a long time since my last post. I was too bussy all this time and quiet confused with all my activites. Back with my stories of course. I thought my blog is my diaries. I'm too lazy to write in on a book hahaha :DD Just begin with my feeling about being in my new school.

I don't feel any awkward situation anymore. I think that I get used to. I've got friends, they're really good and funny, although still I can't be myself. I still could not open myself to them. Maybe it's not the time. I can laugh now, I can adapt, like I said before. There are so much stories that I want to write but I don't know where to start. Now, I used to go to school at dawn and back to home at evening. Maybe some of people will ask what did I do at school? How could it take so long for learning at school? Let me tell you that the lesson is over at 3.10. After that, for this month until next or maybe the next and the next month, I will be busied by my extracurricular activities. I took an English Club and FOKUS for extracurricular. In my school, every extracurricular has a regeneration. It's like MOS at school but it's for the extracurricular. The fact is, the regeneration is so much better than MOS. When MOS, I just could sleep for two or three hours. It was really tiring. But the tasks will never be left. In regeneration, we also got many tasks and of course writing.

I love doing that, I can know a lot of my seniors. That's good, isn't it? We work and discuss together. This afternoon, after went to the PETA Museum, I went back to school. The first plan was I wanted to talk about our tasks with my group. But in the end, we talked about how was the previous MOS and laughed together. It was really fun. There was someone who really enthusiast when told the stories. He was really good at speaking. I just laughed laughed and laughed. Hahahahaha, really funny when I remembered it once more. But unfortunately, I had to go before it's over. I had to go to my course and then back to home. I was sure that I'd really have fun for one year ahead in my English Club. In my school it's called eASY (english Association for SMANSA Youth).

I dind't cry anymore now. I can feel that the pain is walking slowly. Hope it'll really go away and never come again to my life. But I'm very tired. Because of that, sometimes I'm angry with a small thing. I was just too tired, and I just want to quiet. I want to relax my mind, my mouth, and my body. Even it's not sleeping, but I just want to have my own time with myself. I really need it sometimes since I had a lot of doings at school. Maybe it's weird, but I like to talk with myself, just remembered everything while lying in bed or maybe typing in the computer.

Now, I really want to concentrate on my mission. I want to enroll University of Indonesia. Even though all of my families say that it'll hard, but I won't stop trying until I really failed. There must be a way if you really want it and you make efforts to get it. Everything begins with pain and come the happiness :)

FM